or more like a fandom realization/possibility. ( spoiler for 5.08 of supernatural so do not read if you haven't seen it and don't want to be spoiled )

Title: Thankful
Series: Supernatural
Author: frayed1989
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG
Warnings: Character Death
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural. It belongs to its creators and the network that runs it. No copyright infringement intended.
A/N: Companion piece to If I Had the Time to Tell You Everything, I Would. Castiel’s perspective.
Feedback: Always welcomed and loved. Flames however are not.

Summary: Companion to If I Had the Time to Tell You Everything, I Would. Castiel says goodbye.

( You don’t have any regrets, not really. You don’t regret turning your back on your brothers, don’t regret going against Heaven and Hell by following him. )

Title: If I Had the Time to Tell You Everything, I Would
Series: Supernatural
Author: frayed1989
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG
Warnings: Character Death
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural. It belongs to its creators and the network that runs it. No copyright infringement intended.
A/N: This is a very angsty fic. It's also done in a POV that I've never attempted to do before. You've been warned.
Feedback: Always welcomed and loved. Flames however are not.

Summary: The Apocalypse takes away more than just lives, but time too.

( Sometimes the world moves too fast while you’re stuck, trying to process simply your breath fanning out into the cold frigid air, a cloud that proves your existence, proves that you’re alive. )

Title: Right
Series: Supernatural
Author: frayed1989
Recipient: prettypsycho
Pairing: Dean/Castiel.
Rating: NC17
Warnings: Spoilers for Season 4.
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural. It belongs to its creators and the network that runs it. No copyright infringement intended.
A/N: Written for deancastiel's Renegade Angels Exchange.
Prompt: Fallen!FirstTime!Castiel, something quiet fluffy but not so saccharine to give you a toothache.
Feedback: Always welcomed and loved. Flames however are not.

Summary: A recently fallen Castiel must learn how to be human.

( The earth did not shake, nor did it give to the sudden impact of flesh and bone. )

Created a new Supernatural fan fiction archive yesterday/today. Did it after realizing that except for livejournal and fanfiction.net, there are limited places to find Supernatural fan fiction- which is strange considering that the fans are freaking dedicated to the show. So I figured I'd create a Quidditch Pitch-like archive for all Supernatural fans- meaning all forms of fan fiction is welcome - except RP. At least for now. We'll see what happens later on. :)

Premade layouts are available. If ordered, they will be edited to depict your site name and a few other details (such as lyrics, color, and codes). They are available either coded or uncoded and are free.


Castiel;


Walk Through Hell;

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Title: You Save Oceans
Author: frayed1989
Genre and/or Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Spoilers: n/a.
Notes: Third installment of my fanmix creations. Enjoy.



download and tracklist here @ justdepends

Claim: Supernatural: Castiel
Batch: Batch#2 (011-024)
Additonal Notes: Spoilers for ALL of Season 4. The usual rules that are given at the bottom of the post. Enjoy!

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Title: Narcolepsy
Chapter: 6/?
Series: Supernatural
Author: frayed1989
Pairing: Dean/Castiel, Sam/Ruby implied.
Rating: R overall, PG13 for this chapter
Warnings: Spoilers up to 4.16, angst, violence, and slash.
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural. It belongs to its creators and the network that runs it. No copyright infringement intended. I do not own the lyrics to Narcolepsy. They're written by Third Eye Blind.
A/N: Next installment is finally here! Sorry it took so damn long. I could give you all my excuses but I figure you'd rather just read it instead. Enjoy!
Feedback: Always welcomed and loved. Flames however are not.

Summary: The Winchesters visit a town which seems to suffer the nightmares of a narcoleptic. Can the boys save them or will it be the last straw for Dean?

Previous Chapters Here

Chapter Six:
And I hold my breath till it’s more than I can take
And I close my eyes and dream that I’m awake…

( “Wait a minute. Did you just say a seal?” Dean frowned, his brows pulled together as he leaned towards the angel as if it might help him understand better. )

figured i'd give brief explanation to where/what i've been doing. for the past two weeks, i've been busy not only working, but also revamping both my site, justdepends.com, and my sister's site, two worlds. today i finally finished my sister's site so both sites are up and ready for your viewing.

justdepends.com is also currently taking applications for both affiliates and for those who would like to be hosted at my site. so, if you're a friend and you already have a site, please consider applying for an affiliate spot (i've got none) or if you would like a site to showcase your work (fiction/graphics/resources/etc.) apply and you could get one for free! check it out.

so i still have to revamp my online portfolio and my layout/fanlisting collective and then i'll be done on the website front except for the regular updates. you can definitely expect an update to Narcolepsy this week along with more icons for my castiel icon100 challenge. so keep and eye out!

that's pretty much it. tomorrow megan and i get to start painting the guest/computer/library hybrid room. i'm pretty excited. :)

sorry for not updating in a while. been too busy at work and working on my site (and watching veronica mars) to do much of anything else. i know. i suck.

anyways, the real reason why i am posting...

it is official. i'm going to see blink 182 the summer. august 13, hersher park, star pavillion, section b, row 20, seats 12 & 13. OMFG.

after august 13, i will be able to die having lived a fulfilled life.

currently revamping my site justdepends.com so that it looks like its dreamwidth and livejournal components (is that the right word? i don't think so but you get what i mean). this also means switching from fanupdate (which was seriously horrible- i don't recommend it to anyone) to cutenews which so far has been wonderful and it's so much easier to code rather than wordpress which just confuses me.

so after, revamping justdepends i'll then move onto my portfolio site one great city! and make it an actual portfolio for my works. and you can bet the summer will be spent revamping the entire justdepends franchise (i run a lot of sites including two fanlistings) along with also getting my sister's portfolio site up finally. (been failing at that since last summer)

which also reminds me, i have TWO dreamwidth codes so if you want one, hit me up and i'll let you know what's up. i tried and failed to give my sister one but she won't take it as she states she barely uses her livejournal anyways (she doesn't use it, but i do try especially since she writes and i know she'd get a lot of good feedback if she posted them up at some livejournal communities but whatever)

so i think that's it for now. hopefully a new chapter of narcolepsy will surface sometime this week along with some icons. we'll see. i still have to clean my room, put away all the stuff i brought back from towson and of course, there's work. anyways, fact is be on the lookout!

i am soo at a loss for words it's not even funny. but still, small review. soo...

( cut for spoilers 4.22 of supernatural )

new layout yet again! i promise to still with this one for a long time as i believe i am now finally settled in here at dreamwidth. well. almost. i still need to set up just depends but that can hold off for another day.

in other news it's finals week this week. tomorrow i have a history take home final exam due at midnight, friday an art history exam, and monday a sculpture exam. luckily all huge projects are done and turned in, meaning i've gotten a bit of a break both yesterday and today. tomorrow it'll be back to hittin' the books to finish up the semester. by time time monday, i'll be officially done with my sophomore year of college. yay! and now you know the reason as to why i haven't updated with anything juicy. fear not! the usual fair with resume sometime next week. i'm thinking tuesday.

so yes. i do love zachary quinto. and yes. it is a very physical love. as most of my love is with celebrities. mark hoppus is possibly the only exception as his crazy frequent twitter updates make me feel as if i actually know him which i don't.

star trek was BEAST and i plan to see it again sometime soon. in fact, both my sister and i feel compelled to drag our mother to it and will probably do so sometime in the upcoming week. depends on my work schedule and all. saturday is the chili chook off which i'm very excited about because third eye blind will be preforming and it'll be my first time seeing them live! some other bands are playing (i really only remember papa roach and teb) but my main reason is third eye blind so i'm happy.

that's pretty much it in the way of updates. hopefully next week will see some graphics and an update to my fan fic Narcolepsy. Here's to hoping. So far my plans for this week/weekend/next week is to finish finals, move out of millennium hall, and clean/organize my room at home as it's a complete mess. after all that is done, i'll definitely post more often.

oh! i will also be purchasing a new desktop this summer hopefully. i'll be getting a mac of course, and i've already determined that i'll get the mac pro quad-processor and with all the specs i want, it'll come to about 3 grand with tax and that's not including a monitor. i'll probably by that at best buys and save about 400 right there. my mom has agreed to help me buy it but that's because she'll be getting my desktop (a 6/7yr old dell) in return. and that just makes me uber excited because it means not only will i have a kick ass desktop that runs smoothly but i'll also be able to play sims3 when it comes out! that's right! sims3 will be able to run on a mac too! i stoked.

right. i'm off.

p.s. please comment with your top 5 hottest celebs. mine are:
1. mark hoppus
2. misha collins
3. zachary quinto
4. matthew mcfadden (pride & prejudice)
5. alan rickman (sense & sensibility)

so tuesday i finished my self portrait painting and yesterday i began my castiel painting. figured i'd show you the progress since i got some nice comments from my last post. anyways, enjoy! :)

( carry on my wayward son... )

Saw Star Trek today. It was vicious and I recommend it to EVERYONE, even if you aren't big on Star Trek (the shows). Now I'm off to work from 5-10. My stomach's acting up and when I get home tonight, I'll be busting my ass so I can finish that painting so I can do my 4th tomorrow. Wish me luck!

( spoiler cut for 4.21 of Supernatural )

Right, it's 11:14 and I really should paint a bit before I hit the hay. Tomorrow I'm seeing Star Trek so expect a review on that (if I've got time). That's about it. Here's to hoping I can finish 2 paintings before Sunday because I'm working all freaking weekend. Tomorrow and Saturday from 5-11 and Sunday from 9:45-5. Plus Sunday is Mother's day. Anyone invent a time machine yet? Because I totally could use one.

Claim: Supernatural: Castiel
Batch: Batch#1 (001-010)
Additonal Notes: Spoilers for 4.20 included. The usual rules that are given at the bottom of the post. Enjoy!

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as i've stated in previous posts, painting has been kicking my bum but today i kicked back and finished one of the four paintings for my final project. anyways, since a friend asked to see it, i figured it would be easier to post it up here plus this would let all my new cool dreamwidth peeps see exactly what i can do (which sadly isn't much but ah well). anyways, check it out!

( not to pull your halo down )

right, check back for more updates later!

hey all!

so college/painting is currently kicking my ass and making me it's bitch. i have 4 painting i have to paint by monday the 11th and i only have two started. this wouldn't be an issue if it weren't for the fact that i have an installation to put up tomorrow and a machet to make for the fourth plinth final project for my sculpture class.

add finals next week and work all freaking weekend and i am kind of going insane. but that's okay. because as of may 18 i will be officially done my sophomore year. thank jebus.

i also will get a small break on may 16th when i go to the chili cook off and see third eye blind LIVE! (note: i still need to get tickets!)

anyways, small little break before i attack my reproduction painting and finish it. i also realized i totally need to make an icon showcasing my art so i can use it in posts when i talk about art. because am i geek/loser like that.

update later.

p.s. i am currently writing chapter 6 of my fic Narcolepsy so be on the lookout for an update sometime in the next two weeks.

right-o.
new layout coded by gossymer
new profile also coded by gossymer
awesome moodtheme by morlockiness @ livejournal.

expect more updates soon. don't know how often i'll be able to update right now as we're nearing finals at towson. one more week of classes and then finals!